I've been better

I've been better...
Feeling my hipbones against my mattress
Waiting for my appetite to return
Lacking taste buds

I've been better...
Dreading every emotion
Yearning for something that has died
Fighting tears

I've been better...
Faking smiles in class
Daydreaming of happier times
Raging against denial

I've been better...
Shocked with memories
Halted happiness
Fear of reality