overwhelmed...

I am totally overwhelmed. I just figured out what I am going to be for Halloween which honestly isn't like me...which is soooo totally disappointing. Usually I have a good idea of what I am going to be, and I'm super sad because Ichigo is not even going to be dressing up because I did not think of any costume for him.

Lately I have not been on top of much because of dang school. I am stressed and my period has been badly effecting my mood. So much things are due, and I have now gotten discouraged with my genetics class. So many things are going on, I have to vote on Tuesday, while having a speech outline to hand in that day, then I have my speech to give and Genetics homework due Thursday. The speech is a big deal too because not only do I need to practice it in front of an audience for a few days before, I don't even know what I am doing yet! I have not started any sort of research...my topic is on homelessness, but it is more complex than just the homeless population. It is a persuasive speech so I have to persuade my audience to take some sort of action to help the homeless population. How to help them, I am not sure. I was hoping to take a step of emotional help...but my professor is directing me more towards money to an organization, or actions against police being so rude to homeless people. I am so ridiculously lost with that one.

I don't know..life has been too much. My period has been effecting my mood again and I argued with Dennis on Wednesday. Now his roommate is giving Dennis & I attitude while he's nice to the other roommates, I don't even know what is up with him. I'm not looking forward to going over there tonight (Dennis won't even be there yet...), but I am only going there to take care of the pup and to leave tonight for Vacaville. If the roommate is there, I will be nice...I don't hold grudges, plus he didn't do anything mean to me for me to even hold a grudge! I don't even know what I did to offend him! Unless he thinks that Dennis and I were mad at him on Wednesday when in actuality it was just between Dennis and I. Uggh..life is such a mess. He made the air yesterday so damn negative, I hope it isn't like that today. It's a horrible feeling and I wanted to paint too...but no I couldn't because he made a thick wall of dead air that I could not get past. I am really really praying that he is past this bad mood today. Who wants to be around someone who's like that.....trying to stay optimistic that he won't give me attitude.