English final was today. I felt pretty good about it. I read over it when I had finished up and it felt...well it felt great. Not like I think I will get an A but hopefully I will get at least a B and receive a final grade of a B! I think I feel great because that is one final over! =)
I realized that...well...I weird people out. Obviously I have known this fact for a while. Ever since I left the Academy I am trying to maintain the same personality I had when I was an Academy student. Yet...people are weirded out by my "strange" persona. I'm more verbally open than most about sex, sexuality, nudity, and flatulence. I can talk about these things and not feel...embarrassed until someone mentions that it is not cool to talk about it. That's when I feel more angry than anything because is it so bad to talk about my personal life...what else are we going to talk about? I kept my mouth shut after I felt this way...and I do not like that. I miss people who are more open about things...yet oddly enough more people in this school are more informed about other things such as political events and social awareness...Yet NOT aware of something simple, logical and to me normal! If they are so aware of political events such as what's going on in the gay marriage scene and believe they have the right to marriage and love then is it so wrong for me to admit the type of girl I'm into. They feel uncomfortable or they bombard me with Qs on my sexuality which I don't mind but they make it seem like they have never met someone bi before. Basically - I'm confused about how bizarre I am to people. What is normal? So what if I'm not normal...do I have to be?
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