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I think I'm going to go to bed tonight crying.....-sigh-

everyone has gotten better but me...OH MY GOSH...I wish I ate, drank, breathed art like how the others have....

the honest truth is I never got along that well with many people at my other school...so why should I care? I tried to...never worked out. Why can't I accept that I need to get better on my own and forget about everyone else? I don't know...I guess because I had gotten comfortable and now when I look back...I actually miss it. Deep inside I am angry....deep inside I knew I felt there was no other choice. It was too expensive, I honestly did not know what I wanted at that time in my life. Now I do...now I can really say that I love art....feels like I knew it too late. Life can be such a damn run around, I feel like shit.